I have a long list of career paths that I considered going down starting with Fairy Princess and ending at… Heck, I still don’t know! Veterinarian. Pop star. Radiologist. Youth pastor. Nurse. Some were just a phase and some I may still pursue, but I’ve always felt that my deepest calling & purpose is to glorify God through my marriage & through motherhood.
I’ve only been a mom for 4 years now so don’t take me too seriously 😜, but in my experience so far, nothing else produces the simultaneous joy and frustration that motherhood allows. I couldn’t imagine going through my life without feeling that spectrum of emotion. There are many wonderful days where I feel my cup runneth over…. aaaaaand there are days where I hide in my closet with a bottle of wine and question every decision I’ve ever made. So why is it, as I’m retelling the story of my 4 year old daughter losing control of her bladder on the McDonald’s PlayPlace slide and shutting the whole area down that I can turn to my husband and say “Let’s have another”?
Motherhood has been one of the key means of experiencing sanctification in my life. Motherhood is knowing joy, even when experiencing the hardest trials you’ve ever faced. I have been pushed beyond my limit time and time again forcing me to rely on God for my strength, wisdom, and -let’s be honest- sanity. I have learned that when I am weak, God is made strong in me. He is constantly lifting me to new heights while stretching me far beyond any limits I once put on myself.
For them and for Him.
Psalm 127:4 inspires me to fill my quiver with arrows and spend my life forming them to be a deadly show of force & accuracy against the enemy. Straightening what’s crooked. Sanding the rough spots. Adjusting the feathers. Dedicating time to target practice. Making sure my little arrows understand their identity is in Christ and their purpose is to be trained, aimed, and released for God’s will and His glory. I want my marriage to be a reflection of the love between Christ & His bride all the while being sanctified through the service and selflessness that marriage requires. And I want to be a mom (AKA warrior 😉) knowing that these arrows that I carve, shape, & balance are going to journey far beyond my reach.